One of Those Moments

This week has been a very challenging week, in many numerous ways.

I tend to spend a lot of time alone, which I'm okay with, but it's not the best thing for me. Earlier in the week I came across a quote "Don't believe everything you think." It has such meaning to so many scenarios, but I found it especially meaningful to me because I'm often my worst enemy. It's incredible how quickly the mind can process different results, variables, and scenarios of various incidents you encounter in day-to-day life. Regardless of the results, or the detail, you can't believe everything you think.

So many questions I've asked myself and God this week. Trying to sort through the direction I'm heading and trying to make certain that its the path that God has for me, and making sure I'm walking in step with God. I'm constantly paranoid of that, I feel like I'm excessive about it. But this week has been one that I especially ask "God, am I really supposed to do this." And I know if it is I need Him to take my hand and guide me along.

I can just picture God listening to my thoughts and rambles and just sitting there, listening and coaxing me to work through it. Like a parent or teacher knowing that you are capable of the task set before you, with the occasional word of encouragement or guiding your focus. I love how God doesn't get bored with my trivial thoughts. What a tiny thing compared to the wisdom and awe of His great being. To be all that He is and yet care incredibly for my smallest thought. Wow.
What a love.
What a Father.
The way he works, orchestrating everything to His great plan. Working through people-friend or stranger, and sometimes through objects, or even animals. Just yesterday even, a spiritual mentor heard a word from God the moment they saw me. And wow what a word. God really knows what to say. And it's got me excited. Hard to say what it refers to but I'm looking forward to learning what it is. Then today was another incident. Been praying about timing and the words to say and someone I was talking to tells me something that has been in works for the same amount of time I was praying. I didn't know it, but God had already set it to motion the moment I talked to Him about it. How can people not believe in an intelligent creator. It's happened time and time again, and yet I'm still just as stunned as the first time. It's simply incredible.

Lord, help me to trust you through this, and giving it to you and let you manage all of this for me. Give me wisdom, steady my hands, and let your presence and handiwork show in my work.
Thank you Lord for all you have done, are doing, and will do. You have blessed me incredibly.